YOU ARE DOING FINE!!!

Jasmine sayang, one thing you have to learn in life is to stop wanting to please others. Just remember you are living your life so put your perspectives of who you are first before listening to the tonnes of crap everyone around you is just waiting to shoot off because they aren't happy with themselves.

All the years i've known you, you never looked down on yourself the way you did in the last post. Ok, yea, others might think you speak or sing or whatever in a childish manner, but so what, what if it is your style. And fiy, i don't think there is anything about you thats childish, ok maybe the skate-scooter thats it. (: Its good that you've found your element with the singing and stuff but you should consider concentrating on school alittle more than MS for a while longer. Its your last year and if you think you are weak at coming up with designs or even other concepts of school stuff you should work on them with the little time left. And pleease pleease pleease, remember how mad even i used to get when you were late. Considering im a very patient person, imagine how others would feel. Just remember to set the alarm right and be sure to go to sleep on time so you dont face problems like not being able to wake up.

From the sounds of it, your friends aren't really that supportive. Yea maybe its hard for a close friend to be straigtforward sometimes because they want to spare your feelings but if they "gang-up" (not literally siis) with others when they tell you the truth, it isn't nice. You aren't at all wrong to feel angry about the whole thing. Maybe 'A' hasn't got it clear yet that you are someone who likes honesty and if there is something bothering her/him about you, you want it to be cleared out. You should try talking to 'A' and telling her/him what you think about what has been going on lately. I know from experience it helps alot.

You can't even begin to imagine how proud i am of you from all that you have learnt and being able to spot out your flaws in a list because not many can. Remember you are already on the winning side. All you have to do is correct the list. Imagine those who know nothing, nada, about who they are, what they want, what kind of a person they happen to be , their flaws, who they want to be. They have no clue how to move forward because everything is a grey blur but in your case you have everything in front of you listen out even, so its your decision to correct who you are, or not correct who you are (because i think you are a magnificent being) and improve on yourself.You are doing great and i am totally absofuckinglutely proud of you for that. Remember that honey. Be happy with who you are and look forward to improving yourself, do not ever look down on yourself you hear me. Everyone loves you for who you are and don't ever forget that. Now get your butt of that computer chair and go do some school work. And stop it with the late nights used for MS which will not get you as far as a diploma in architecture will.

Meu amor